A Snowball's Chance
As were a pebble or a ball of ice
One Homo Sapient's Slant on Livin' in the USA
As were a pebble or a ball of ice
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011
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Labels: personal, personally evolving organism, poetry
i am far too far away from you
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Tuesday, February 22, 2011
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Labels: Hope, personal, personally evolving organism, poetry
I'm thinking on things I need to mend
old wounds I've kept open
developed skills which fail me now
passionate pleas which must always fall upon deaf ears
because they aren't aimed correctly
even though my accuracy is impeccable
I'm facing up to failures denied
belittled and bemused by my own apathy
have I fallen into disrepair and anguish
painful to behold and yet held up as mettle
it is emptiness embodied
it is loneliness entombed in light
the light which only shines forth dimly
I'm canceling my tickets to the ball
to the far flung reaches of imagination
where I've always known I'll never go
but, dreaming of it, have ignored the here and now
and passed on far too many small wonders
given up this chance or that
for some delusion held so dear
it drains my life of spirit
I'm putting out the weary fire
the flickering candle of despair
which has lit my way through life
for all these many years
though often I have dimmed its light
and hid the flame behind my back
as, knowing deep inside, I questioned its source
and begged myself to heed the truth
before the shadows swallowed me
whole
I am still
and forming
daily into more
of what I'm meant for
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Wednesday, February 02, 2011
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today is rough
I feel the panic seeping in
not like before
with the ways and means
I used to hide behind
underneath the netting
like covers pulled over a child's head
to keep away the bogeymen
from whom I run
today is slow
I wonder why it comes again
so like before
its creeping tendrils
telling me it's coming
I can't hide
don't bother, but I do
knowing nothing but the want
afraid that I won't run
today is long
it wanders like the crooked river
meanders to an end
nature's grades guiding to falls
just as she does for me
in infinite fractal branching
forging futures
fatalistic and magnanimous
where I might run
today is good
oh, I know it doesn't feel that way
not in these still desperate moments
not with the panic seeping
slowly out and away like the tides
away from the beach of solace
leaving behind the stench
of that from which, of course,
I cannot run
today I breathe
know that which I must clear away
with my own two hands
my back breaking
my head filling up
with aromas so inspiring
so despised by now
and desperate to be without them
do I run
today I would close down
except that I cry out
electronic silence the deepest sighs
soul all akimbo
liminal in some enchanted way
amassed of fortunes
under appreciated until recently
as panic began to wane
I glimpsed the place to run
today is good
tomorrow will be as well
and I will run no more
today is good
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Wednesday, January 05, 2011
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Labels: Hope, personal, personally evolving organism, poetry
just this once
nevermore and only
unless because
because well
you know
what if I didn't
what if I didn't take that chance
and I was left
yet again
hanging in the wind
the cold
the emptiness of being
me
alone
as usual
and then again
I feel that I'll change
I don't
I don't have any reason
for that feeling
maybe it's just hope
that shit I won't abandon
even on the edge
so far away now
so far away
On Wikipedia, it goes like this:
"The artist is nothing without gift, but the gift is nothing without work." - Émile ZolaEither way, I'm still one lazy, unmotivated sumnabitch... Catch freakin' 22, eh.
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Michael Bains
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Friday, November 30, 2007
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Labels: Cross Posting, Emile Zola, My Google, personal, poetry
I'm so fucking messed up. I mean, sure, most of us are to some extent. I know that. I'm just more so and further along then most "normal" crazy people.
Even explaining that makes it seem enormously apparent.
C'est la fucking vie.
I can't help this longing
...
and I wanted to believe ...
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Sunday, November 25, 2007
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Labels: 'Tubes, cross-posting, Existence, personal, Sarah McLachlan
It's Just The Normal Noises In Here
i'm spiraling down
and outta control
up's comin' the ground
oops
missed
hit a hole
so farther I sink
and longer I fall
reach out
grab a link
to try and forestall
these black dog days of august
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Michael Bains
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Sunday, August 19, 2007
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starting over . . again
down
trundling
lazy as she goes
two turns on the
big wheel
hang it all
as the river flows
so dies
the dream long passed chance
and, believe it or not, that's a Good Thing.
Not been in much of a bloggin' mood of late. No worries though. Is just cuz I'm sucked into a book's universe. I'll be back after - or more likely during - the sadness of its ending.
L8!
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Michael Bains
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
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