Steps

It's just a small hole
a leak in the fabric of a night
 one word  of a kind
 one thought  dark mind

But it didn't need
 turn out that bad
So I simply hold on
Step back from time

It's only a short time
a peek into some younger mind
 one image  of a kind
 one thought  base mind

But it didn't need
 turn out that bad
So I simply hold on
Step back from time

Was just a brief glimpse
a leak in the fountain of the light
 one moment  of a kind
 one more  numb mind

But it didn't need
 turn out that bad
So I try to hold back this time
But it didn't need
 turn out that bad
So I fall again in kind

But it didn't need
 turn out that bad
So I simply pray to hold on
Step back again from time

Trump the Dog 

silly spins the globe of us 

and painful sinks the stone 

lazy lifts the slopes and thus 

a people fall alone 

wander through the times of mind 

and cross the gulf of times 

again falls gently hard and gross 

abundant thoughts of stone 

chance the wild in search of peace 

and slaughter hearts seen not 

bereaved and false though true to self 

when tied in shadow owned 

asleep in torment lies the bird 

and embers dimmed glow 

a lonely spirit often held 

by all who lie below 

but Sun forever calls them out 

and moon their hopes does swell 

be causes meant for heres and nows 

so fair in dreamlike bloom

the fault lies open and it breaks 

for they aren't ones to turn 

against a tide which fear makes break 

upon its time to burn  

ever gonna make it

all I am is human 

even that seems way too much to bear 

all I am is breathing 

even though it's hard to keep at it 

all I want is something 

even though I can decide on what that may be 

all I want is nothing 

even as I keep on drawing one breath then the next 

g time

Instant fix
and goddam what took so fucking long?

Simple twist
but there's so much fucking more involved!

Open line
but you only want to hear me say what you want me to say

Just no time
and all I do is sit around wishing I was altogether different

Found some time
but if I don't take a nap I know I won't stay up for anything

One more time
just one more god damned fucking time and I'm just gonna fuck it up again so why the fuck am I wasting so much fucking time

i can't do it
I can d

it's shit and easy

it's shit easy
and easy as shit to get
the fuck out of
another's way

and I'm only taking
time to breathe
uneasy
looks like everything else

perspectives give divisions
and I am so divided
from the smiles and stories
I observe


And yes it does happen.

anti-inertial

am I not so
as is
as I want
alone
time and something other
once
I held an image in my soul
I was an image of my soul
living and being
roiling full inside
other features seen
heard and felt
passed by and through

in thoughtless absorption
every tiniest spec of nothing
a splash in a void
and seeing nothing 

is ever what I get
time to get what is seen
everything
and all that follows
every grief
ever formed
and joy prevalent
in time
so much more time
as I will give
for all
I can now ask

Michael Bains

2 hours ago near Cleveland · 

• What's on your mind?
  
  Oldie but ... well this is new
  
  wonder of the world
  I'm fucked alive
  amber soaked I feel it
  holding me where I've been
  forever and ever
  life with an end
  just no shot
  at even one more
  fucked
  beginning
  I guess I have
  just to pay it forward
  hoping for a refund
  rejected for the hope
  and lost again
  in love and fear
  a new well of hells
  with smiles and sadness
  apropos of one time
  the first last and only
  eternity without a mullligan
  or any chance of heaven
  without hell all up inside it
  savory sensual swellings
  wonder of the world
  fucked and once forever
  and ever
  no more
  It'll have to do

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thisness mine

Essentially
whatever I'm saying
when I try to relate to you
unless a joke it's simple

it's seriously funny
that you look at me
at least you smile
and I see another thread to share

Just as I see it there
and I know you are aware
and I am so alone
words each leading off
other simplicities spun off 

all I want is a path
sensibility and music
a relay to the world larger 
of the way it is to me

I can take the looks
I just wish that I understood
or didn't as it hurts 
the reasons for suffering 

I think the same way
with the same chemicals
a stem no different from the forest
all the wood alive
except for me unrooted 

shadows' stains

needles 

impetuous fucking pricks 

sanitizing steel before the piercing 

why bother 

it's endless

at least as long as that 

but less invigorating

like a toothache 

the nerve laid bare and stabbing 

only torture gives me hope 

whatever 

frankly I'm not into it

this oblique existentialism 

the rapture never thrilled me 

so why go on 

incidental to my whiny visions 

lapping waves keep calling from beyond the woods 

the shore 

its magnificence my one time friend

preaches patience from the distance 

entrancing 

even beyond reality's bounds the birds sing it to me 

enticing me to throw it all away 

the grief

and boredom

the pride 

and loathing of self 

historical accuracy erases opportunity 

all sent packing while the bliss of  self pity envelopes 

entrances and erodes my inner peace 

that which I run from to find 

I need to stop wondering how I ever got here 

and quite believing I'll ever leave 

as if it matters once you know it all 

and all of it is shit 

anyway, ain't it? 

the poseur's ennui

the fake fanaticism

luxury in scarcity and fear of going on 

like a heartache 

the third time gone again 

but there's no strike outs 

not in love 

I wonder why I always hit 'em 

over the fence on the first try 

unless I miss entirely 

still a loser 

everyone's a loser though 

I'm pretty sure I'll get over it again 

it's not like it's anything real this time 

just shadow's stains 

senescence

somethings missing
some things
I'm missing them
I'm not alone
nor just along for the ride

several symptoms occur
normally involved
in randomness
laxadaisical
heh

aimless, not
unfortunate except
for granted thoughts
elusive waves are feeling me
feelings

upwards again
and in again
and not enough for it to spend
upon its reason
it won't last

but for now
I wander wondering
stop that 'cause of course
I know
I almost always know

sloppy, I leave it the way it comes
too much goes
when somethings missing
some things I need more of
but can only make myself
with help

again