anti-inertial

am I not so
as is
as I want
alone
time and something other
once
I held an image in my soul
I was an image of my soul
living and being
roiling full inside
other features seen
heard and felt
passed by and through

in thoughtless absorption
every tiniest spec of nothing
a splash in a void
and seeing nothing 

is ever what I get
time to get what is seen
everything
and all that follows
every grief
ever formed
and joy prevalent
in time
so much more time
as I will give
for all
I can now ask

Michael Bains

2 hours ago near Cleveland · 

• What's on your mind?
  
  Oldie but ... well this is new
  
  wonder of the world
  I'm fucked alive
  amber soaked I feel it
  holding me where I've been
  forever and ever
  life with an end
  just no shot
  at even one more
  fucked
  beginning
  I guess I have
  just to pay it forward
  hoping for a refund
  rejected for the hope
  and lost again
  in love and fear
  a new well of hells
  with smiles and sadness
  apropos of one time
  the first last and only
  eternity without a mullligan
  or any chance of heaven
  without hell all up inside it
  savory sensual swellings
  wonder of the world
  fucked and once forever
  and ever
  no more
  It'll have to do

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thisness mine

Essentially
whatever I'm saying
when I try to relate to you
unless a joke it's simple

it's seriously funny
that you look at me
at least you smile
and I see another thread to share

Just as I see it there
and I know you are aware
and I am so alone
words each leading off
other simplicities spun off 

all I want is a path
sensibility and music
a relay to the world larger 
of the way it is to me

I can take the looks
I just wish that I understood
or didn't as it hurts 
the reasons for suffering 

I think the same way
with the same chemicals
a stem no different from the forest
all the wood alive
except for me unrooted